dear diary,
all I ever wanted is to satisfy my parents and make them proud of me, but all I keep doing is disappointing them making them sad and stressed, I'm really feeling so down and bad, my grades are so low even tho I worked so hard, I know I did but it's never enough.
I know thats not the end of everything and I must work harder for the next trimester or I'll be totaly fucked up ....
and I also know that im strong enough to get up after falling so hard , the most important thing is that I'm not broken so I can get my shit together ...
And for the first time in my life love was my only cure, a touch of hand made all my sadness fade away, a little look straight in the eyes brought me back to life , he was just like drugs or a painkiller that makes me forget all my pain whenever I'm next to him , but when I get back home the drugs effect is gone and I'm lonely and sad again ...
So all I have to do is sleeping, it seems like the only legal way to forget the pain ....
all I ever wanted is to satisfy my parents and make them proud of me, but all I keep doing is disappointing them making them sad and stressed, I'm really feeling so down and bad, my grades are so low even tho I worked so hard, I know I did but it's never enough.
I know thats not the end of everything and I must work harder for the next trimester or I'll be totaly fucked up ....
and I also know that im strong enough to get up after falling so hard , the most important thing is that I'm not broken so I can get my shit together ...
And for the first time in my life love was my only cure, a touch of hand made all my sadness fade away, a little look straight in the eyes brought me back to life , he was just like drugs or a painkiller that makes me forget all my pain whenever I'm next to him , but when I get back home the drugs effect is gone and I'm lonely and sad again ...
So all I have to do is sleeping, it seems like the only legal way to forget the pain ....