Dear Diary,
My second experience is the longest and the most exciting one. I was one step closer to love but i didn't get there yet. Because my definition of love is to be a love from two sides not just one. and during that experience love was a a one player game who can't fill two hearts at the same time.
This relationship is still till that moment but only as best-friends, it started 5 years ago, when i was that girl who had crush on the most desirable blond boy at the school, who already had a boyfriend ( i didn't know that at beginning). So we were friends for like a whole year only on Facebook and we see each others at school without talking. it sucks... my only dream in that period of time was to talk to him directly. After one year of suffering, we finely talked directly but that didn't last for a long period because guess what we had here... a jealous girlfriend , and it was the most disgusting feeling in my life ,the feeling of guilt, so i had to prove to that girl that we were just friends which was literally right. the next year he become my classmate and it was the best year of my school years, because i had the chance to be really close to him but as best friends and all that feeling of like and crush went away i felt free to be with him because i knew that i don't hold those feelings anymore. And till that day we are so close, so comfortable, and so intimate. However i became the jealous best-friend :p
But here is a secret, if you feel like your love is from one side and it can never be mutual, destroy those thoughts when they first appear, this is when they are the weakest.
My second experience is the longest and the most exciting one. I was one step closer to love but i didn't get there yet. Because my definition of love is to be a love from two sides not just one. and during that experience love was a a one player game who can't fill two hearts at the same time.
This relationship is still till that moment but only as best-friends, it started 5 years ago, when i was that girl who had crush on the most desirable blond boy at the school, who already had a boyfriend ( i didn't know that at beginning). So we were friends for like a whole year only on Facebook and we see each others at school without talking. it sucks... my only dream in that period of time was to talk to him directly. After one year of suffering, we finely talked directly but that didn't last for a long period because guess what we had here... a jealous girlfriend , and it was the most disgusting feeling in my life ,the feeling of guilt, so i had to prove to that girl that we were just friends which was literally right. the next year he become my classmate and it was the best year of my school years, because i had the chance to be really close to him but as best friends and all that feeling of like and crush went away i felt free to be with him because i knew that i don't hold those feelings anymore. And till that day we are so close, so comfortable, and so intimate. However i became the jealous best-friend :p
But here is a secret, if you feel like your love is from one side and it can never be mutual, destroy those thoughts when they first appear, this is when they are the weakest.